If you have followed this blog for the last 6 years, you know that starting a family was not an easy feat for Ryan and me. After 22 months of perfectly timed attempts at home, 2 surgeries, 3 different types of medications (including shots and weigh gain!), 7 fertility procedures, 3 miscarriages (5 pregnancies total!), an undisclosed ridiculous amount of $$$ (fertility treatments are not covered by insurance in NH!), and buckets of blood, sweat, and tears, we finally had Carson Michael Curtis in October of 2010 and Crosby Quincy Curtis in February of 2014.
Needless to say although we were thrilled to have the two kiddos we had...in 2014, we were physical, emotionally, and financially exhausted...
Ryan and I often discussed whether or not we would ever consider a third baby. I am one of two kids and Ryan is one of three. We both agreed that the 2 child parent to kid ratio was fantastic, and we weren't sure we wanted to mess with that balance. Ryan was perfectly content with his two sons. I would be lying if I didn't say that part of me was grieving the loss of the possibility of some day having a daughter to dress up, braid her hair (I am really good at braiding hair!), be the mother of the bride, etc. But I also knew that a baby girl was not a guarantee! And that three boys sounded slightly insane...
What we both agreed on was that in no way shape or form were we interested in going through the necessary medical steps again that we had gone through to have our first two children. We had essentially been told for various yet unexplained reasons that the likelihood of us conceiving a child and sustaining a pregnancy naturally was pretty much slim to none. So Ryan and I settled in with the two children that we had, expecting to be a happy family of 4 for years to come.
That didn't last very long! Fast forward barely a year and a half later after Crosby was born, and I am staring at two obvious lines on a pregnancy test after waking up not feeling very well one morning! How could this have happened? I mean we weren't doing anything to prevent it...but why use birth control when you can't get pregnant? Crosby was IUI #6 for goodness sake!
I immediately called my fertility specialist not even knowing where to start, especially since I have quite the history of early miscarriage. They asked me all the necessary questions...."Date of last period?" I have no idea..."When do you think you ovulated?" I have no idea....Numbers and data that I used to track on the regular were now an after thought! I was a total fish out of water! We figured out I must have been about 5 weeks pregnant.
I must say...early pregnancy for me is a total nerve wracking experience...almost daily blood draws for beta levels...are the beta's doubling? are you spotting? is there a heartbeat?....Many times the answer has been no...yes...no. This pregnancy has been almost a fantasy! No stress during the "two week wait" as I had no idea I was waiting...beta's more than doubled showing great values, no spotting at all...and a heartbeat right away! This baby definitely wanted to be in this world and in our family!
Overall this pregnancy has been such a different experience for Ryan and I. No anticipation before hand...some nervousness but not to the previous extent...but also not the huge level of thrill that we had experienced once we were in the clear as we felt with our first two...instead while in total shock, we are asking ourselves...what the heck are we doing to do with 3 kids? Did we even want a third child? What if its 3 boys? Do we need a new car? Do we need a new house? Where is this baby going to sleep? Our thoughts of excitement are replaced with thoughts of logistics! That is until we found out the gender...but more on that later! Regardless, we are most definitely thrilled to welcome another little Curtis into this world, as we like to think we make pretty awesome ones!
As most of you know...we like to nickname our baby so we aren't calling it "It". Carson was "Swarley", Crosby was "Wader"...and this baby is "BC3" as in Baby Curtis #3! (We know...we get less creative as the years roll on...) Aunt Kris likes to call it C3PO, ha ha ha.
One of my favorite things about this pregnancy is that my due date is April Fool's Day 2016...as in "You didn't think you could get pregnant? APRIL FOOLS!"
Here are some first glimpses of BC3!
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| 6 weeks at specialist's office |
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| 8 weeks at specialist's office |
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| 9 weeks at regular OBGYN (can you tell the ultrasound machine quality is less?) |
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| 12 weeks at our "First Look" ultrasound |
Stay tuned for a first trimester recap post, as well as the big gender reveal already!!!
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